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"Voidsent" is what you call demons?

[Koniha frowns, trying to imagine actually fighting one...]

I don't think demon tiles will really scare them away. It's just a superstition really, but...

[Hopefully it's the thought that counts?]

Pretty much, yeah.

[ Arenvald has had a few small run-ins with fiends of various shapes and sizes, but he doesn’t make a habit of fighting them if he can help it.

But it occurs to him that he might have been rude regarding Konoha’s gift, and backpedals immediately. ]

Oh, no, I don’t mean to sound ungrateful! I really appreciate it – and who knows, mayhap your demon tile holds some power in the Temple.

Gosh, no, I didn't think you were ungrateful-

[Konoha quickly waves her hands to dismiss the very idea, prancing in place a moment as she tries to think of a different topic.]

Oh! I met your blue ribbon friend, too! So now I know both of them!

[The... fancy name! Aphi... naud? It's harder to remember his name, since she'd met him... in the cave times, not a nice... calm... remembering time.]

[ Oh. The mention of Alphinaud reminds him of the conversation they had over the watches while everyone was exploring the caves. His cheeks color a bit. ]

Ah, about that… he told me you said I let you sleep with me, and he took that entirely the wrong way.

[ Deliberately. To tease him. But the fact remains!! ]

Yeah, when I was scared!

[She answers automatically at first, smiling, because she's still quite grateful for the comfort that he offered her there in that scary cave... but after a moment, she blinks.

Then blinks again.

And colors in response.]

... the wrong way like... the sex way... ?

[ Her going red is not helping him at all, and it’s a miracle he manages to keep from literally glowing even as his face grows warmer still with her revelation. ]

Aye. That’s… that’s it. Mayhap, ah, be a little more mindful of your wording next time?

Oh, um-

[Her hands fly to her ruddy cheeks in embarrassment, as if that will somehow keep it contained, her tail swishing rapidly beneath her skirt as she struggles for an explanation. Did it need an explanation? Oh, geez-]

He probably only misunderstood because he's never met me in person! Once he sees me he'll never imagine it's the sexy way again!

[After all, everyone who she'd mentioned Sha and her human husband to had seemed really shocked, so... the people here must not think jinba and humans can be together! Easy solve!]

Wh- Which isn't to say that I wouldn't, I'm not trying to insult you! You're so kind, and handsome, and have so... many muscles...

[Nope, too late, she's imagining it, abort mission- !?]

[ Oh gods, Alphinaud was right. Arenvald thought his friend had just been teasing when he said Konoha fancied him, and then she goes and says that and it completely takes the rug out from under him. ]

K-Konoha, I… um…

[ What does he do. What does he do. ]

Look, I really like you, and I think you’re very sweet but I’m not… what I mean to say is, I have feelings for someone else so… I’m sorry. I really value your friendship though! So um, I hope we’re… we’re still okay and all…

[ #nailedit.

Also, it’s faint, but he is certainly glowing. Gods damn these powers and whatever weird ties they have with his emotions. ]

[So busy panicking over her own poor word choices, it actually takes Konoha a moment to realize that... something very More Panic is happening right now.

Until it registers, and her tail jerks straight up in surprise, hands freezing in mid-dismissive wave... before she slaps them to her breast to prevent having a massive heart attack and dying right then and there.]

N- No, what? I'm not- I'm not confessing! Y- You're crazy good looking for a human, like... really, um, and I love how you're so strong, but gentle, too! I really admire that, and... you've been so kind to me, and I like when you smile-

[Nooooooooo, it still sounds like she is confessing???]

Wh- What I mean to say is, I-

[DEEP BREATH]

I like someone else, too!

Edited 2018-11-02 18:03 (UTC)

[ This is going downhill awfully fast, because even though Konoha insists she’s not confessing, it sure sounds like she is and he’s still reeling because what do.

And then she blurts out that last bit. The wild ride Arenvald’s brain has him on comes to a sudden halt, probably accompanied by record scratch if we’re being really cliché here. ]

You do?

[ There is mayhap a bit too much relief in those words. ]

Y- yeah.

[Admitting it out loud is always weirdly hard, because she'd told herself... she probably shouldn't tell anyone. Least of all him, because surely... surely he didn't feel the same way about her, and he'd want to leave the village and go back to the mountains, and her saying something so selfish like that would only make him feel guilty... but.]

I do...

[Even if it was just one-sided... She did.

Enough so that she almost looks like she's tearing up, lip trembling before she bites it to try and quell the signs of upset.]

[ Well, in essence, they did just confess to each other, just… about other people instead. He can be grateful that the misunderstanding didn’t last overlong, if nothing else, but he can’t help but feel bad for putting her on the spot, all because Alphinaud put a ridiculous idea into his head. ]

Konoha, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to upset you. Please, don’t cry.

[ Way to go, he tells himself. Now he’s hurt her feelings somehow. ]

No, you didn't-

[She's quick to try and reassure on that point, at least, that it wasn't his fault, but it's also too late to stop it now, and the tears escape onto her cheeks despite how much harder she bites into her lip trying to prevent it.]

I just- I don't want us to not be friends just because you think I like you- Even if I did, I know it wouldn't work, because if we're stuck here I'm never going to find anyone and I'll die a childless spinster-

[There's almost only two-legged humans, and everyone... Everyone seemed to be disgusted or weirded out by the idea of humans and jinba marrying. Hell, even she thinks it's kind of weird, so- So- She tries to sniff the emotion back in... and fails, shoulders beginning to quake as she loses the battle against crying.]

And... I'll probably never see Gonta agaiiiinnnn-

[Hiding her face in her hands sounds like a good idea at this point, so. Into her hands it goes.]

Konoha...

[ Too late, here comes the waterworks, and Arenvald is quickly taken so very far out of his depth. He has no idea how to get her to calm down. Gods, what does he do?? Someone help!! ]

Konoha, it's okay, really! You're not going to die childless and alone I promise!

[ Where is Rion when he needs her? He has no idea how to deal with relationship stuff, let alone... all this. ]

[This is all Alphinaud's fault!!

She tries to stop, it's embarrassing, wiping the tears off her face as quickly as she can, even if they're still coming. Not just for her, but... also for Arenvald, who she incorrectly assumes is in the same situation she is, worlds away from the person they're pining for.]

But what if we both do? What if we never get back home and we never get to confess to the right people?

[And not... whatever this mess was!!]

[ Everything is Alphinaud’s fault. Every single thing.

He casts around for something she can dy her tears with, and ends up ducking briefly into the washroom to bring her a clean rag, which he holds out to her. ]

We’re not going to be stuck here forever.

[ And in trying to encourage her, he suddenly throws his own situation into very sharp relief, because his feelings are for a fellow Circle member. What if they do go home, without him ever sharing how he feels?

Quietly, ]

Ah, my person is here.

[The rag she accepts, sniffling her thanks as she takes it and tries to wipe her eyes, almost blowing her nose... then not, because she might be a country girl but she knows it's not right to do that in someone else's fabric. So sure she is in the situation that she actually doesn't even register what he says at first, assuming blindly that they are both away from the people they like.]

I know everyone keeps saying that, but wha-

[What if, though? ... Except then it does register.]

What?

[Someone here? But- They were all trying to go home, weren't they? And Arenvald... his world didn't sound like some of the ones she's heard about, like Nier's or A2's. Worlds you wouldn't want to go back to. And he had friends, and something like family back home, right?]

Really? Someone here?

[ He does want to go home. There are people there that need him, he has a job to do and is one of the very few that possesses the gift that allows him to do it. He can't just abandon the Scions and Ala Mhigo.

Which means that one day, all of this will be over. One day Astoria will send them home and he... he'll lose the people here that he cares about. Romantic feelings aside, that means leaving people like Konoha as well. He hadn't thought about that before, and the realization sits somewhere in the pit of his stomach, squirming in a darkly unpleasant way.

He hopes that, for her sake, he manages to keep his feelings off his face. ]

Yeah. Someone here.

[... Ah.

She almost asks who it was on instinct, but she bites that back for now. For all she knew, it could be a situation like with her, with Gonta, feeling like she shouldn't say because it wouldn't be fair to him, might not be right to burden him with her feelings when they might serve only to guilt him into staying somewhere he was miserable in order to be kind.

But it doesn't have to show clearly on Arenvald's face for her to know. She felt the same. Even though she wanted to go home... she would miss the friends she had made here. Miss him, and Connor, and A2, and Nier, and Emil, and Simon, and Akira, and-]

Oh, Arenvald...

[Her own painful, probably unrequited feelings momentarily forgotten, she instead reaches for his hands to hold them in hers, her expression turning softer, sympathetic.]

I'm sorry... that must be painful.

[ If he weren’t so caught up in the sudden revelation of the sheer impermanence of their stay in the Circle, he would marvel at just how much this conversation veered wildly from pumpkins to a massive misunderstanding to something almost melancholy.

As it is, he’s still reeling a little, wondering just what he’s supposed to do. Should he keep quiet, should he take the risk? Should he—

Konoha’s hands close around his own, snapping him back to reality, and he looks up at her, expression unreadable only because his feelings are too jumbled to really pick one and stay there. ]

I hadn’t… I hadn’t actually thought about it before now. Now I’m uncertain where to go from here.

[The ache from this mental whiplash will just have to catch up with them later.

It actually surprises her, when he says he hadn't thought about it. Maybe it was because he was used to magic and that sort of crazy thing... Konoha had been painfully aware ever since their arrival that this wasn't her world, that she needed to get back to her own... Been afraid she'd be stuck here, and what that would mean for her future, just like what returning would mean. She didn't talk about it as much, trying hard to be positive, to help others and keep busy instead, but...]

Do... They like you back, do you think?

[She assumes it will have to be a guess, but. She squeezes his hands, wondering which would be more painful, between keeping one's feelings to themselves or trying to be together with someone you knew may be parted from you literal worlds away any moment. It's something she's thought about a lot, in the days leading up to the completion of her current job, when she had a feeling... Gonta might go back to the mountains.]

If we can't get back to our own worlds...

[Maybe he could have someone and not be alone.]

[ He’s thought about going home, there’s not a day when he doesn’t think of it, but somehow, he failed to connect the dots of what it would mean when he started developing feelings for a fellow Circle member, and one not from his world. In fact, their two worlds could not be any different.

What a mess they’ve been put into, forcibly removed from their homes and placed into a situation where they cannot help but lean on and become close to each other. A forging of bonds that, in the end, were made to be broken. ]

I don’t know.

[ Breathed out, in answer to her question. He sees where she’s going with this, trying to find a mote of hope in the dark realization that’s opened up beneath him. He’s not so sure if he wants to latch onto that or not just yet. ]

It’s kind of… complicated.

[Complicated... Konoha knows about that. (She thinks.)]

Complicated how... ?

[Unfortunately, there's a lot of options when it came to "complicated". She considers herself one of only two people in the tram who aren't what she considers "human", or "human enough", so she naively thinks it can't be the sort of worry she might have, if she fell in love with a member of a different species...

But that still left a lot. Someone... married? Who had a family back home? Who didn't like him back?]

It's... [ Well, she knows Connor, so she would probably understand. Before he ventures any more, however, he has to be sure of something. ]

Promise me you won't say anything to anyone about this?

I promise.

[That Konoha can do, pulling one of her hands back to extend only her pinky finger in order to show how serious she was.

She might talk too much on occasion, she's pretty sure, but. She wouldn't ever willingly violate someone's trust- especially not someone who had been as kind as Arenvald.]

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